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Prompt 1
Another article idea hit me and cant sleep: A curse of indifferent. Do you have an idea what that means
Prompt 2
First one, being indifferent towards anything, I just realized that i love listening to songs but i never actively or consciously or mentally listening to it, I never know why i like particular songs… I know I like them but i feel like there is still a deep seated indifference somewhere deep down in me.
Prompt 3
Its an article for my personal blog, gkoreli.com
Everybody’s indifferent. You like something but never trully chase to the point where you bleed where you feel the pain of losing something or someone, never truly open up to the point where you can allow good and bad things to enter. You just live a safe life, safe from emotions and from physical aspect. Its just safe. You never chase your dreams and others dreams who are strong enough end up consuming yours and you just say to youtself eh one day, whenever i achieve this thats when i will prioritize my own dreams, one more year and im gona trully lock in on myself, let me work on this project and put it to finish first, you look back and you are thirty already, you accomplished lots of projects like that, you did a really good job amd everybody has noticed, but then what? Everybody knows you are good and capable and knowledgeable, and low risk, safe. You know as well, but that doesnt change nothing, that doesnt put your dreams forward, everybody is trying to prioritize their dreams secretely while pushing the other peoples stronger dreams. You just default back to safe.
Everybody’s indifferent. You like something but never trully chase to the point where you bleed where you feel the pain of losing something or someone, never truly open up to the point where you can allow good and bad things to enter. You just live a safe life, safe from emotions and from physical aspect. Its just safe. You never chase your dreams and others dreams who are strong enough end up consuming yours and you just say to youtself eh one day, whenever i achieve this thats when i will prioritize my own dreams, one more year and im gona trully lock in on myself, let me work on this project and put it to finish first, you look back and you are thirty already, you accomplished lots of projects like that, you did a really good job amd everybody has noticed, but then what? Everybody knows you are good and capable and knowledgeable, and low risk, safe. You know as well, but that doesnt change nothing, that doesnt put your dreams forward, everybody is trying to prioritize their dreams secretely while pushing the other peoples stronger dreams. You just default back to safe.
Prompt 4
I was actually lostening to city of stars and i like it but i have never thought why i like a song, what makes me feel that way… nothing deep but what if i truly listened and enjoyed the lyrics and the essence not just the vibe. What if i actively wnjoyed it instead of passively?! What if i stoped being indifferent piece of toast. What if you start living? I feel like life needs a manual for some people, because for some people common sense is not a common sense, like if someone didnt tell you to literallu listen to lyrics of the song you would not ever listen to it, you would only listen to a song as a melody in the background. Which is not bad bit its passive consumption. I dont know why im obsessed with this concept but for some reason i feel like there is true inherent mental voncept hidden in listening to a song and not comprehending the lyrics and not listening actively, maybe some kinda hidden indiference, at the end of the day i like it but i dont care that much, whatever, the life still goes on… but this second im annoyed i just dont want life to just go on, i wanna listen to the lyric and find a beauty and find a quirk and find a problem with it, enjoy it or fix it, or fixate, whichever i dont care but im annoyed that i have been listening to all the songs in my entire 29 years of existence passively without comprehending the lyrics, which seems a little miniscule but i was not five a manual of life, so until today it didnt hit me that i have been doing this since forever.
Prompt 5
1. It sprawls
You are discovering the idea while writing it. That is good for notes, bad for the final piece.
WHAT? what does that even mean, so i can't write from my revelations? from my thoughts? i have to sit and wait and forget? what are you even talking about
You are discovering the idea while writing it. That is good for notes, bad for the final piece.
WHAT? what does that even mean, so i can't write from my revelations? from my thoughts? i have to sit and wait and forget? what are you even talking about
Prompt 6
- I like this shaping a lot btw: Life as Background Music, makes me feel like you are getting what i am talking about
- i agree with this, this was more or less the realization, but being indifferent has to do something with it, not being annoyed about some things, recently i realized that whenever i get annoyed about something, i dont wanna neglect it any more, i want to tap into it, being annoyed is a signal, i dont wanna be indifferent any more, i am annoyed because i care and i wanna do something about, thats what i wanna change, thats what i have been thinking recently past week and thats when i was thinking about the word indifferent and the concept of indifference entirely, then this music arrived and i realized liking something is a signal as well, but i never tap into that signal either, i am also indifferent, i like the song but i dont know why i like the song, i never listen to the lyrics, i am 29 years old and will be 30 this year, there is a lot of mental shift happening in me this year and i am not even trying to reflect, i am just observing things as they are happening real time, i am not remorsing, i am just actively participating in my own life and observing things as they happen instead of waiting years to reflect, reflection is good and poisonous as well, you end up waiting years and then you are like oh let me reflect to feel better or to feel remorse, i dont want to wait no more, i am 29 about to be 30, but this can be entire article in itself about why reflection is good and poisonous as well, so if i circle back, i realized that i have been listening songs and liking them without knowing why i like them, i never enter the song or tap into it to listen to lyrics and understand why i like the lyrics or the melody, i just treat the entire thing as a background music and i bet i am treating my dreams and my life as a background music similarly, i bet i am treating other parts of my life like that and i bet you the reader you have the same exact problem, if i have it, trust me you also have that problem, because nobody told you or me that when listening to the songs listen to the lyrics as well and you might understand why you like the song you like if you try to actively listen to it instead of passively listening to it, common sense is not common sense for either you or me, thats another root cause nobody wants to admit, and everybody is behaving like lots of things is common sense, but me and you are not everybody, i dont wanna live my life like a piece of toast, i wanna actively listen to the songs that i like and listen to the lyrics and i wanna know the lyrics of the song City of Stars from la la land movie, because i like it and i dont know why i like it, its not that deep but i wanna know the lyrics, i wanna actively listen to it, i wanna actively be in charge of my own dreams, otherwise i am defaulting to driving and standing behind everybody else's dreams and aspiration just because life is safe and its easier for me to be indifferent, also this is not me trying to change my entire life upside down, no not at all, i just wanna acknowledge all of this and whenever it matters, whenever i want i want to be in charge to actively listen to the songs that i like and listen to the lyrics as well, tap into it, tap into the feeling of the liking something, tap into the feeling of being annoyed about something, do something about it without guilt, whenever i want to be able to tap into my dreams and live and work on my dreams, and whenever i want default back to being indifferent to feel safer and be safe, i wanna be in control instead of forever living my life as a background music, instead of defaulting, instead of being a piece of toast...
- i agree with this, this was more or less the realization, but being indifferent has to do something with it, not being annoyed about some things, recently i realized that whenever i get annoyed about something, i dont wanna neglect it any more, i want to tap into it, being annoyed is a signal, i dont wanna be indifferent any more, i am annoyed because i care and i wanna do something about, thats what i wanna change, thats what i have been thinking recently past week and thats when i was thinking about the word indifferent and the concept of indifference entirely, then this music arrived and i realized liking something is a signal as well, but i never tap into that signal either, i am also indifferent, i like the song but i dont know why i like the song, i never listen to the lyrics, i am 29 years old and will be 30 this year, there is a lot of mental shift happening in me this year and i am not even trying to reflect, i am just observing things as they are happening real time, i am not remorsing, i am just actively participating in my own life and observing things as they happen instead of waiting years to reflect, reflection is good and poisonous as well, you end up waiting years and then you are like oh let me reflect to feel better or to feel remorse, i dont want to wait no more, i am 29 about to be 30, but this can be entire article in itself about why reflection is good and poisonous as well, so if i circle back, i realized that i have been listening songs and liking them without knowing why i like them, i never enter the song or tap into it to listen to lyrics and understand why i like the lyrics or the melody, i just treat the entire thing as a background music and i bet i am treating my dreams and my life as a background music similarly, i bet i am treating other parts of my life like that and i bet you the reader you have the same exact problem, if i have it, trust me you also have that problem, because nobody told you or me that when listening to the songs listen to the lyrics as well and you might understand why you like the song you like if you try to actively listen to it instead of passively listening to it, common sense is not common sense for either you or me, thats another root cause nobody wants to admit, and everybody is behaving like lots of things is common sense, but me and you are not everybody, i dont wanna live my life like a piece of toast, i wanna actively listen to the songs that i like and listen to the lyrics and i wanna know the lyrics of the song City of Stars from la la land movie, because i like it and i dont know why i like it, its not that deep but i wanna know the lyrics, i wanna actively listen to it, i wanna actively be in charge of my own dreams, otherwise i am defaulting to driving and standing behind everybody else's dreams and aspiration just because life is safe and its easier for me to be indifferent, also this is not me trying to change my entire life upside down, no not at all, i just wanna acknowledge all of this and whenever it matters, whenever i want i want to be in charge to actively listen to the songs that i like and listen to the lyrics as well, tap into it, tap into the feeling of the liking something, tap into the feeling of being annoyed about something, do something about it without guilt, whenever i want to be able to tap into my dreams and live and work on my dreams, and whenever i want default back to being indifferent to feel safer and be safe, i wanna be in control instead of forever living my life as a background music, instead of defaulting, instead of being a piece of toast...
Prompt 7
- i agree with this a lot: the essay is really about this
Not:
I never listen to lyrics.
But:
I realized I often treat my own life the way I treat songs I like: I let them play in the background instead of fully entering them.
And then:
The problem is not indifference itself. The problem is defaulting to it.
That is the sentence.
the best tension in your piece
This part is the gold:
I do not want to destroy my life and become hyper-intense about everything.
I just do not want indifference to be my unconscious default.
That makes the essay real.
Because otherwise it becomes fake self-help:
“care about everything, feel everything, chase everything.”
That is nonsense.
Your version is better:
safety has a place
detachment has a place
reflection has a place
indifference even has a place
But you want choice, not autopilot.
That is the actual philosophy.
- i am not trying to put my life on risk and turn everything upside down, noooo, nooo, noo, i have done that, i have been through shifts and i have gone through lots of things and i know what it takes, and i am not afraid i can do that over and over but that is also fake, thats fake movement, its like brain popcorn, you think productive thoughts and do nothing about them but you feel productive because that thoughts that you thought were productive and i felt productive, thats all it takes right? thats all it matters right? no... thats a brain popcorn, similarly going through transitions over and over, never committing, thats a default as well, thats a life popcorn, all it proves is that you are adaptable, but so what? you are strong and then what? you never use your strength to lock in your dreams and live in the casualties and consequences of your dreams... thats why i wanna be in control, i know what my dreams are and i wanna be in control whenever i want, and i wanna be able to default back to safety whenever i want, and i wanna know and have full visibility whenever i am in either of those modes, and i wanna listen to my songs actively whenever i want to and passively whenever i want to be indifferent or passively listen to them in background when im working and music is not the main point of the moment, but whenever i am listening to the song from la la land and it is making me feel certain way and its lighting a spark inside me, i wanna tap into it and fully listen to it and even take something away from a lyric or a song, or commit something back to it somehow, make it even more meaningful to me some way, and same applies whenever i get annoyed about something, i wanna control whenever i want to be indifferent or whenever i want to fully tap into it
Not:
I never listen to lyrics.
But:
I realized I often treat my own life the way I treat songs I like: I let them play in the background instead of fully entering them.
And then:
The problem is not indifference itself. The problem is defaulting to it.
That is the sentence.
the best tension in your piece
This part is the gold:
I do not want to destroy my life and become hyper-intense about everything.
I just do not want indifference to be my unconscious default.
That makes the essay real.
Because otherwise it becomes fake self-help:
“care about everything, feel everything, chase everything.”
That is nonsense.
Your version is better:
safety has a place
detachment has a place
reflection has a place
indifference even has a place
But you want choice, not autopilot.
That is the actual philosophy.
- i am not trying to put my life on risk and turn everything upside down, noooo, nooo, noo, i have done that, i have been through shifts and i have gone through lots of things and i know what it takes, and i am not afraid i can do that over and over but that is also fake, thats fake movement, its like brain popcorn, you think productive thoughts and do nothing about them but you feel productive because that thoughts that you thought were productive and i felt productive, thats all it takes right? thats all it matters right? no... thats a brain popcorn, similarly going through transitions over and over, never committing, thats a default as well, thats a life popcorn, all it proves is that you are adaptable, but so what? you are strong and then what? you never use your strength to lock in your dreams and live in the casualties and consequences of your dreams... thats why i wanna be in control, i know what my dreams are and i wanna be in control whenever i want, and i wanna be able to default back to safety whenever i want, and i wanna know and have full visibility whenever i am in either of those modes, and i wanna listen to my songs actively whenever i want to and passively whenever i want to be indifferent or passively listen to them in background when im working and music is not the main point of the moment, but whenever i am listening to the song from la la land and it is making me feel certain way and its lighting a spark inside me, i wanna tap into it and fully listen to it and even take something away from a lyric or a song, or commit something back to it somehow, make it even more meaningful to me some way, and same applies whenever i get annoyed about something, i wanna control whenever i want to be indifferent or whenever i want to fully tap into it
Prompt 8
What to do with “brain popcorn” and “life popcorn”
These are good phrases.
Maybe not both in this exact essay unless you handle them lightly. But they are real.
* brain popcorn = thoughts that simulate progress
* life popcorn = changes that simulate commitment
- its okay to include them lightly those are the terms that i personally mentally created once when i was writing in my diary so these terms will have their own articles in future, they are not the integral pieces in this article, but they will be recurring them in the future articles because i have had problems with brain popcorn, thinking oroductive thoughts and feeling productive and never translating into the actions, or briefly translating into actions and as soon as i get bored or hit a major roadblock leave it alone and default back to another brain popcorn another productive thought now being enjoyed in my brain movie theatre, another showing is happening lets go and watch it
These are good phrases.
Maybe not both in this exact essay unless you handle them lightly. But they are real.
* brain popcorn = thoughts that simulate progress
* life popcorn = changes that simulate commitment
- its okay to include them lightly those are the terms that i personally mentally created once when i was writing in my diary so these terms will have their own articles in future, they are not the integral pieces in this article, but they will be recurring them in the future articles because i have had problems with brain popcorn, thinking oroductive thoughts and feeling productive and never translating into the actions, or briefly translating into actions and as soon as i get bored or hit a major roadblock leave it alone and default back to another brain popcorn another productive thought now being enjoyed in my brain movie theatre, another showing is happening lets go and watch it
Prompt 9
Overall lets lock in the title life as a background music and proceed with drafting the article and lets work on it together